One of the main reasons that I stopped my business and many of the pages and groups that I was running was people's greed
I found it heart-breaking that humans would attempt to drain me like you would a tap. It was crazy how used and violated I felt. Some actually tried to get at me in my sleep. I am guessing they felt my <unusual> energy, and they would try to drain it from me to feed them, as if that was going to magically heal them! I found that once I stopped feeding their need, they would disappear, not honouring their side of the bargain, whatever that was. At times it was writing a referral that they <forgot> to do, at other times, it was taking the reading without actually sharing their thoughts about it, as was asked before they received advice. People jumped onto my pages and groups once things were being offered for free, but disappeared, nowhere to be found when other posts were offered or a fee was being charged.
I realized quickly the difference between those that actually seek healing and those that want you to fill the hole they feel inside. I say feel because some STILL come back and I can now shoo them away and keep them at bay, but the hole is still there, inside of them. That was why they sucked me dry. They felt better after receiving my help/insight/support, so they came looking for more, on an energy level, so a lot of times I was not aware of it until it was too late.
My sister, can see when people are doing that, she can see energy and is a very powerful healer. This was pivotal in my learning; to look at what I feared and see the vampires that hovered around me, feeding off of me. It was terrifying at first, I must say, but I began, slowly, to learn to stand u for myself. Honoring my gift and really believing that it really is an amazing ability was the very first step. Knowing that it was special enough to have so many trying to steal it was unfortunately how I realized that what I have is pretty neat and desired by many. Healers, psychics, readers, you name it, they, too, came after it. At first, I thought it was great, being so in demand. But as I began to <see> more, I began seeing what these <humans> actually were and their guides would actually denounce them to warn me!
This is why so many are so protective of me now and jump to shield me. They remember how depleted and sick I got when others were literally sucking me dry. I am learning to shield myself more and more everyday. It is a hard path to be an empath and healer without realizing it. For those of you here that are just observing. I hope you find this little outpouring of my past to be helpful and I hope it warns you of the potential dangers of what can happen to you if you are too <open> to sharing...
Protection is the key, but I think we all have our path to understanding and the nature of what I do required me to live through these events. Your life events may be different as your gifts are different. Just because I can see and feel shit does not make me special, lol...it makes me different from you, that is all. You have untapped gifts that you are here to explore. You would not be here otherwise ;-) lol I look forward to exploring them with you!! We are ALL here to be supported and respected as we grow, and as our gifts grow.
It has been an incredible road to self-empowerment, but I do not regret any of it as I have learned SO MUCH! Thank you all for being here with me and guiding and supporting me. I appreciate you all!!!