As I sit here studying for the various violence, threatening behaviour and critical incident protocols, I am reminded of the times those protocols were not upheld and imposed, allowing liars old and young to twist information and plot revenge, make stories up to hurt, defame and slander the character to avenge and get revenge. I see these acts as being acts of violence. But were they treated as such?
No, they were not. They were ignored.
They will live with that and the seeds of karma that now grow in their souls.
Regardless, I feel the hurt, the pain, the disbelief and the distrust that I felt at that time. It comes back up. It hurts again. But this time not like betrayal and disbelief tear away the boundaries I usually have. The boundaries that I usually hold up so well, all fell because I could not believe in such evil and in such incompetence. It came for a reason. The pain was shocking and unbearable.
Now, as I look again, it is wrenching, writhing, it has been stored inside, waiting to resurface. And resurface it has. It has been painful all week, reliving the betrayal, the pain, the hurt.
But this time is different.
This time I am empowered.
There is a strong soul.
There is a grounded energy.
There is a lesson well learned.
There is a bird about to fly away, on strong wings, to a distant horizon.
One where she is celebrated and respected. One where talent, passion, credibility, ability and intuition are revered, not rejected. This time I can see my power and their lack of it. I see their fear. I understand my power without having to say a word. I see my ability to crack open even the hardest heart. I can see. I can see you. I can see that you despise healing. I can see that this was not easy for you. I can see that, while you did sign up for this, you just couldn't do it when the time came. I can see your weakness. I can see you doing even more terrible things to quickly paste over the hints of love and light that entered your hearts, making sure that you reinforce what appears as strength. The strength you think you have is to tear down others.
I can see their ongoing deeds, their darkness and nastiness. They have not changed. I can see. I can see you, and you never liked that.
This time is different. While I can still see what they are and what they do to others, I see the others not as vengeful, but as pathetic. I see their torturous pain. I see their weakness. I see how sad and flaccid they are. I see how small they really must be to tear down an innocent person just trying to stand up for what is right for the good of the others that they were hurting. They have hurt many people and continue to do so because of their pathetic weakness.
They see themselves as strong but actually, they are not. Darkness is never strength. Those who stand up against them are torn down. Those who question them are ridiculed and mocked. They are hurt and villainized. All for trying to show them that they are hurting others. That they are wrong. That they need to see the light. They are just trying to show these sad souls the way. They are just trying to teach them to be kind. In light. They, the light bringers, are doing the right thing. Believe it or not. I was doing the right thing.
Perhaps you do not see it right now, but one day, you will. Maybe not in this lifetime. Maybe not at all.
Some energies are not here for the same reasons as most. They are here in darkness, to create more darkness. They have a dark agenda and do not like being exposed. I exposed you and your darkness. You may not believe it, but it was the right thing to do, for the good of others. Our paths will never cross again as you will run at the mere feeling of my energy next time. Next time, you will not have your coven with you. You will be but one. And you will be afraid. Of what? Of healing. Of love. Of light. That makes me sad. You could heal, if you wanted to. Much pain can bring much healing. You came to this planet at this time because of the number of powerful souls here that can help you see how to heal. Closing your eyes and feeding your darkness only blocks that more. You may have a dark agenda, but I believe you can heal. You can regain your light.
Not everything we believe is the right thing and not everything that is right is believed by all. I stand by what is right. I stand by my own sense of inner power and belief. I am here to teach and heal and bring light. You are not. That is your path. But your path will always, always be weaker while you walk the path of darkness. Always. Light always wins. What is right always wins. It plants sends that will hopefully one day grow in the cesspit that is your current soil.
I may stand alone but I stand free of the slime that covers your putrid souls. The layers you have placed on yourself make the light pulsating within you very very painful to feel. Far easier to add more layers of darkness. Where there is great light, there is also great darkness.
All souls may originally be pure, but not all remain that way.
It takes a lot of effort to go as dark and evil as they did. a lot of effort. Many lifetimes of living in darkness, loving the feed of pain and suffering. As addictive as any drug you find on this planet. I look to them with curiosity as to why they chose me to sew those seeds of love and true light, when really, they did not want them? They work so hard to kill everything that is pure and loving. They must be in so much pain to be like that. They struggle to overcome the seeds of darkness that they have sewn within themselves. They do not seem to understand just how dirty they actually are. Just how tainted their souls really have become. The came here with the agenda of being dark. Of creating pain and suffering. They may not be aware of it, but their past lives show me that they have been hurting others for a loooong time. They are hurting themselves. Sadly, they cannot see this. They can only see the egoistic, false joy that they receive as they feed off of the emotions of others, like zombies and leeches feed off the bodies of humans; they feed off of the souls and the energy of others. They are very dark. Their journey is to experience this darkness, yet again.
I see their darkness and I see my light. Light can be a funny trigger. Especially to those who are so comfortable in their pain and darkness. Their ego and their delusion. Yes, you are deluded. But it is no longer my path to help you learn that, to see that, to feel the love and light. Your dark path now remains yours, alone. Without light. But perhaps you prefer the darkness, the ego, the delusion.
It makes me sad that light would create so much pain in you.
Light highlights everything. Light makes you see. Light removes your blindness and opens your heart. Light allows you to see through your heart, having reconciled with your ego and darkness. A journey that we are all on. But some of us are stuck in darkness. These people I speak of are still immersed in their darkness. I used to see the reflection of my own ego in them. It did not feel very nice. But I healed. I acknowledged my own learning. Perhaps my own learning was just to brush past you and your darkness and dirt, so that I could see and learn to love my own dark side. Learn to love myself more. May this really had nothing to do with you but it was all about me. Maybe. I cannot see myself in you anymore. I can see you as if you are not human. You are energies scattering across the wind, fragmented and weak. Now they seem foreign to me, as if not real.
I have moved on. I have remained in my light. I step back into my heart.
I can see because of my light. They shut their eyes even more tightly and wish for the light to disappear.
Disappear I will not.
But remain in darkness, you will. I wish you light.
My light will continue to shine, even as I fly away. My pain has given me strength. My pain gave me great healing. My healing came from loving all sides of myself, dark and light. My light has saved me.
I hope one day that you have the courage to open your eyes and see the light. You may see things in your soul that you do not like. You will see the trees of hurt that you grow and tend so carefully. Maybe one day you will chop down those trees and grow peace and love. The sun will continue to shine on you, whether you grow love or hate.
It is your choice.
It is your path.
It is your karma and journey.
Take it back.
It does not belong to me.
It is yours.
Thank you for sharing it, exposing me to it, immersing me in it, hurting me with it.
My time has come to grow in love, not pain.
I release you on all levels in love, in every way, across all time and space. Be released, be free. Be healed.
I am healed.
No, they were not. They were ignored.
They will live with that and the seeds of karma that now grow in their souls.
Regardless, I feel the hurt, the pain, the disbelief and the distrust that I felt at that time. It comes back up. It hurts again. But this time not like betrayal and disbelief tear away the boundaries I usually have. The boundaries that I usually hold up so well, all fell because I could not believe in such evil and in such incompetence. It came for a reason. The pain was shocking and unbearable.
Now, as I look again, it is wrenching, writhing, it has been stored inside, waiting to resurface. And resurface it has. It has been painful all week, reliving the betrayal, the pain, the hurt.
But this time is different.
This time I am empowered.
There is a strong soul.
There is a grounded energy.
There is a lesson well learned.
There is a bird about to fly away, on strong wings, to a distant horizon.
One where she is celebrated and respected. One where talent, passion, credibility, ability and intuition are revered, not rejected. This time I can see my power and their lack of it. I see their fear. I understand my power without having to say a word. I see my ability to crack open even the hardest heart. I can see. I can see you. I can see that you despise healing. I can see that this was not easy for you. I can see that, while you did sign up for this, you just couldn't do it when the time came. I can see your weakness. I can see you doing even more terrible things to quickly paste over the hints of love and light that entered your hearts, making sure that you reinforce what appears as strength. The strength you think you have is to tear down others.
I can see their ongoing deeds, their darkness and nastiness. They have not changed. I can see. I can see you, and you never liked that.
This time is different. While I can still see what they are and what they do to others, I see the others not as vengeful, but as pathetic. I see their torturous pain. I see their weakness. I see how sad and flaccid they are. I see how small they really must be to tear down an innocent person just trying to stand up for what is right for the good of the others that they were hurting. They have hurt many people and continue to do so because of their pathetic weakness.
They see themselves as strong but actually, they are not. Darkness is never strength. Those who stand up against them are torn down. Those who question them are ridiculed and mocked. They are hurt and villainized. All for trying to show them that they are hurting others. That they are wrong. That they need to see the light. They are just trying to show these sad souls the way. They are just trying to teach them to be kind. In light. They, the light bringers, are doing the right thing. Believe it or not. I was doing the right thing.
Perhaps you do not see it right now, but one day, you will. Maybe not in this lifetime. Maybe not at all.
Some energies are not here for the same reasons as most. They are here in darkness, to create more darkness. They have a dark agenda and do not like being exposed. I exposed you and your darkness. You may not believe it, but it was the right thing to do, for the good of others. Our paths will never cross again as you will run at the mere feeling of my energy next time. Next time, you will not have your coven with you. You will be but one. And you will be afraid. Of what? Of healing. Of love. Of light. That makes me sad. You could heal, if you wanted to. Much pain can bring much healing. You came to this planet at this time because of the number of powerful souls here that can help you see how to heal. Closing your eyes and feeding your darkness only blocks that more. You may have a dark agenda, but I believe you can heal. You can regain your light.
Not everything we believe is the right thing and not everything that is right is believed by all. I stand by what is right. I stand by my own sense of inner power and belief. I am here to teach and heal and bring light. You are not. That is your path. But your path will always, always be weaker while you walk the path of darkness. Always. Light always wins. What is right always wins. It plants sends that will hopefully one day grow in the cesspit that is your current soil.
I may stand alone but I stand free of the slime that covers your putrid souls. The layers you have placed on yourself make the light pulsating within you very very painful to feel. Far easier to add more layers of darkness. Where there is great light, there is also great darkness.
All souls may originally be pure, but not all remain that way.
It takes a lot of effort to go as dark and evil as they did. a lot of effort. Many lifetimes of living in darkness, loving the feed of pain and suffering. As addictive as any drug you find on this planet. I look to them with curiosity as to why they chose me to sew those seeds of love and true light, when really, they did not want them? They work so hard to kill everything that is pure and loving. They must be in so much pain to be like that. They struggle to overcome the seeds of darkness that they have sewn within themselves. They do not seem to understand just how dirty they actually are. Just how tainted their souls really have become. The came here with the agenda of being dark. Of creating pain and suffering. They may not be aware of it, but their past lives show me that they have been hurting others for a loooong time. They are hurting themselves. Sadly, they cannot see this. They can only see the egoistic, false joy that they receive as they feed off of the emotions of others, like zombies and leeches feed off the bodies of humans; they feed off of the souls and the energy of others. They are very dark. Their journey is to experience this darkness, yet again.
I see their darkness and I see my light. Light can be a funny trigger. Especially to those who are so comfortable in their pain and darkness. Their ego and their delusion. Yes, you are deluded. But it is no longer my path to help you learn that, to see that, to feel the love and light. Your dark path now remains yours, alone. Without light. But perhaps you prefer the darkness, the ego, the delusion.
It makes me sad that light would create so much pain in you.
Light highlights everything. Light makes you see. Light removes your blindness and opens your heart. Light allows you to see through your heart, having reconciled with your ego and darkness. A journey that we are all on. But some of us are stuck in darkness. These people I speak of are still immersed in their darkness. I used to see the reflection of my own ego in them. It did not feel very nice. But I healed. I acknowledged my own learning. Perhaps my own learning was just to brush past you and your darkness and dirt, so that I could see and learn to love my own dark side. Learn to love myself more. May this really had nothing to do with you but it was all about me. Maybe. I cannot see myself in you anymore. I can see you as if you are not human. You are energies scattering across the wind, fragmented and weak. Now they seem foreign to me, as if not real.
I have moved on. I have remained in my light. I step back into my heart.
I can see because of my light. They shut their eyes even more tightly and wish for the light to disappear.
Disappear I will not.
But remain in darkness, you will. I wish you light.
My light will continue to shine, even as I fly away. My pain has given me strength. My pain gave me great healing. My healing came from loving all sides of myself, dark and light. My light has saved me.
I hope one day that you have the courage to open your eyes and see the light. You may see things in your soul that you do not like. You will see the trees of hurt that you grow and tend so carefully. Maybe one day you will chop down those trees and grow peace and love. The sun will continue to shine on you, whether you grow love or hate.
It is your choice.
It is your path.
It is your karma and journey.
Take it back.
It does not belong to me.
It is yours.
Thank you for sharing it, exposing me to it, immersing me in it, hurting me with it.
My time has come to grow in love, not pain.
I release you on all levels in love, in every way, across all time and space. Be released, be free. Be healed.
I am healed.
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