Beyond this, the purging going on inside of me is alarming-I am feeling the ‘antsy’ feeling again. The last time I felt this, Ithought it was a sign to leave everything, run away and start afresh. but alas, no, it was not the message trying to get through to me, lol. And so the learning curve expands. :-)
Is anyone else feeling these headaches? I am absolutely knocked out by them. Trying to remain in the now and not freak out is my main goal at the moment. Because freak out, I am doing. I have not felt like this in quite a while, so it is like learning all over again. I had been doing so well in my little light bubble, not allowing lower energies to get to me. And the they hit me full force, when I least expected it!
Purging, purging, purging….
With purging comes the pain of the past, all ready and waiting to surface and come out. Man ‘o Man is it hard to witness. It took two and a half days before I realised what I was actually going through. I was screaming, shouting, swearing and crying; sometimes at different times, sometimes all at the same time. lol. Now, I will be remembering to spend a moment before I get up, in gratitude and light, to remind myself that it really is going to be alright. I can let the emotions come forth, knowing that they are coming to the surface to be released because I am no longer a place for them to reside. While they are coming up and being released, tummy pain, bloating, headaches, backache and heartburn seem to be with me again. There are even more symptoms associated with this new stage but as with everything, if you are worried or in serious pain, see a doctor. I am talking about aches and pains that bug me and make me irritable if I am not reminding myself of why they are here. If my pain became severe, I would take myself right to the doctor. I know many who have ended up in emergency with breathing difficulties, only to be told that they are having an anxiety attack. I ahve had such attacks and they are not nice, but manageable if yu remember that your body has to work a little harder to assimilate the new energies flowing through you right now. this can lead to breathlessness. If it bothers you, ask your guides to ”take it easy on you ” in order to feel less physical response. Maybe you could ask them to slow down how much work they are doing with you. You are always in control and you need to remember that ;-)
I opened this blog as I was hoping to chronicle my process, and how I am feeling on a regular basis, from the physical symptoms, to the visions I am now having. Each element will be explored as I try to make sense of everything I am learning, seeing, hearing, feeling, loving. Yes, loving. Although this ascension really bugs me sometimes and I have to wonder what the heck I was thinking signing up for something like this; while relaxing as energy,not remembering the emotions or physical attributes associated with being human and how hard this would feel. My soul knows what it is doing and I must trust that. Divine order is everywhere. As is Divine timing. It will be ”all right on the night ,”as we say in Ireland…
And now, as I head off to my beddie byes I will remember that I did indeed sign up to be here, knowing that it may be a rocky road, but REALLY knowing what lay ahead, in the long run. So are these really unchartered waters? Perhaps. Perhaps we are already sure of how we are going to be in the end, on a soul level. Then again, maybe our soul knows it will be ok, but what ok will look like, we have no idea. All I can do when I am purging, is to stay focused on the fact that I CHOSE to do this, as it will benefit me and others, for the highest good of all… ”Eyes on the prize……”♥