I woke up to find my room very 'busy' and buzzing. I have been shutting everything out for the past few weeks, just to switch off fully...but recently I keep getting little nudges about the psychic work, spotting books, seeing being, and it is trying to creep back in, as if to say the resting period is over..lol
I just told it all to go. I don't know what to believe anymore. Reality and my dreams are starting to blur together at times. Sometimes I am not sure if the event happened in earth time or astral time. I am so bloody busy when I sleep! Lol
The good thing is I have (finally) started observing without reacting. I thought I knew that and did that already, but it is like a new level or layer. This time I feel a bit removed, as if no longer really a part of the issues. A lot of people from my past have come forth to be released, as if to finally break the chains..on some level. All these levels! It's like a video game that never ends! Casting away every single 'spiritual support' because I cannot see what is actually real anymore, has just made it all feel even more surreal, as if it had all just been yet another dogma trap that I fell into. It makes being here so much more raw, to not ask for this 'cloak of protection' here, or that 'angel' there. It feels like they are all staying away but will come again if I ask them.
The only thing I go to is 'I am sovereign' I am in charge. I am safe and protected forever. It just feels like I said it once with conviction, death g that for me and my family, and now I don't need anyone or anything else because I am already totally protected and safe in every way. It's like there is no more need to concern myself with it anymore. A spirit came to me and I just told it to get lost, I could feel the power in the words I had spoken. Sounds strange, no doubt, lol there is no more need to protect myself if I already trust in my own power. If that makes any sense. Of course, at 4:44, it makes perfect sense. How ironic....
I just told it all to go. I don't know what to believe anymore. Reality and my dreams are starting to blur together at times. Sometimes I am not sure if the event happened in earth time or astral time. I am so bloody busy when I sleep! Lol
The good thing is I have (finally) started observing without reacting. I thought I knew that and did that already, but it is like a new level or layer. This time I feel a bit removed, as if no longer really a part of the issues. A lot of people from my past have come forth to be released, as if to finally break the chains..on some level. All these levels! It's like a video game that never ends! Casting away every single 'spiritual support' because I cannot see what is actually real anymore, has just made it all feel even more surreal, as if it had all just been yet another dogma trap that I fell into. It makes being here so much more raw, to not ask for this 'cloak of protection' here, or that 'angel' there. It feels like they are all staying away but will come again if I ask them.
The only thing I go to is 'I am sovereign' I am in charge. I am safe and protected forever. It just feels like I said it once with conviction, death g that for me and my family, and now I don't need anyone or anything else because I am already totally protected and safe in every way. It's like there is no more need to concern myself with it anymore. A spirit came to me and I just told it to get lost, I could feel the power in the words I had spoken. Sounds strange, no doubt, lol there is no more need to protect myself if I already trust in my own power. If that makes any sense. Of course, at 4:44, it makes perfect sense. How ironic....
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